A Lesson On Human Behaviour

This post is going to be about:

  1. Self definition / lying to oneself
  2. Confrontation & Conflict
  3.  Distancing oneself from the negators

Here’s a chapter from everyday life, often enough people lie to themselves; like Leonard in Memento. But, the lies of the others seldom bother the common men, for they decide to march on ignoring the tales. In the face of a conflict however, things go awry of there is an imposition of self definition rooted on self delusion and narcissistic self indulgence – there is a whole lotta trouble.

Self definition like delusion

As Nolan says in the aforementioned movie, we all lie to ourselves in one point of time in the minuscule period of our life. But, that shouldn’t be the cause of a meaningless conflict which could drag people apart. Time and again, I’ve faced people who thrust false definitions of themselves onto me. I usually turn my cheek to such behavior, but when my peace is shattered – especially my sleep! There are repercussions to the causer of anxiety!!

Conflict could be catastrophic says Vision in Civil War

Alfred Hitchcock is known to cause silly troubles at the sets of his films. Tormenting poor actresses with practical jokes which could in the end pay off well with their performances. If you could or couldn’t see Hitch playing such pranks is an another matter, but here my point is – even such a jovial person takes conflicts so seriously.

Take a look at this interview, where he confesses his hate for any sharp word.

Is there a solution besides running away?

I have called BS on the negators who’d rather shy away pointing the finger instead of accepting their own. I find it best to say it to them, that their behaviour is of ill thought. I even went far ahead and said that the flaw is deep rooted and you can’t change it even if you try. Then, I distance myself from them.

It is best to point out their narcissistic characteristic trait and  walk away with a stern face. There is no room for emotions, sympathy or empathy in such scenarios. These people constantly way in if they can dig in any flaw to punch on it; or scounder to pull you down. These people can’t be rid off the face of the earth. They feed on anxiety and any creative & philosophical difference they can find.

Bullies can’t be banished. “This isn’t reality TV” Instead, we can opt to stand our ground and go on going on.



The Hard Truths

If you have a good memory for inane details from books & movies instead of essentials, you are like me. And, might know the line from George RR Martin…

Most men would rather deny a hard truth than face it.

A little bit of brew helps a long way in revealing the truths, even to yourself. All we have to do is to stay immobile, reflect on our thoughts and breathe.

The trite with entrepreneurship

I dallied with the idea of a startup where I would be the king. It’s not roses and wine here, rather sleepless nights and worrying times. To make things worse I dragged my friends into this, to help me worry more on the way of things. I thought it would be easier to have them on my side, but we’re not in Stand By Me – age anymore.

Adulthood is sucky I wanna be a child again

I want to go back to the times where I’d rather have a tight sleep with a gripping novel in a cold night. No women or drink in my mind to tease with sleeplessness.

Where are the cartoons and wrestling videos that felt like heaven? Why can’t time twist backwards?

Sorry to be me

In a long while, I repent my sins as an introvert. A loner who seeks out peace, rather than a crowd to please. It’s all a beauty contest, not to steal from my favourite movie – Little Miss Sunshine. But, it’s all there is… superficial, most are not just plain stupid, also jailed to their own little realities unaware of the cosmos.

The BellCurve

Incidentally, trying to name the startup – I came up with the name BellCurve, which lead me to a book that discusses why intelligent men move away from the un-gifted. Also, the book had a touchy idea about differences in racial intelligence, which crossed my mind long ago. Why can’t intelligence be backtracked to the DNA of your ancestors? Science doesn’t care about any petty feelings.

Blog walking again

In a way, just like autofiction and diaries, blog walking helps curb anxties.I agree, this isn’t journalism or any art form that literary bookworms would appreciate. Just a space to vent – good enough for any writer.

A house divided – more movie references

Just like the characters in Prestige, I’m having a difference of opinion by the days. A part of me is suggesting to stick to what I know. Another part of me just wants to dive wide and reach the arts in the modernity.

Memories play trick

You get old enough having enough troubles to attend to. Memory is one such which you can’t afford to lose. Who you are is what you remember. And, the list of dejavus, the characters in life that remind you of you from years older won’t be any help in your growing up…

Beer’s running out…let me catch you after a wee. . .

In the middle of a rock & hard

Kicking a habit is easy, all you need is motivation. But, with the detox comes a cocktail of emotions. With this post, I’m going to share with you readers, where I am at.

The love that every often seems a grasp away, is yet a grasp away. And, with some weird luck, I’m passing off as a non-anxiety ridden person. No thanks to drugs and all hail ‘el musica’. For its been quite some time, that I’ve quit the ‘anxiety pills’. If I’m right, it did more harm than good.

But, one look at the mirror, I’m happy. Tired truly from the work, ready to hit the hay. A lesson learned, from the loss of a gig. A high profile gig, turned sour. Thanks to many, especially that one girl who is all cute and smiley – but when it comes to work she is a tortoise, in a rat race.

How did I mess up?

To be frank, I fucked up the opportunity. Wasn’t prepared to handle the workload. And, all thanks to her no one to guide or coach me through. Damn you gal!!!

It’s just making me Hulky!

I made wrong choices, one of which was self-delusion and medication. Upping the dosage reversed the reaction. Anxiety returned like a monster, in the pretence of a self-confident  – walking tall bloke.

If it were no more regrets

They say, regrets don’t matter. But, let me break it open when I’m sober. Rushing up, without proper gear and army – doomed to die be it Cap America or Bruce the Lee. And, who was I?

One strong one weak?

Speaking in the local language, and occupied in the rat race – I have become distant with English. No time to read, the half-finished Paulo Coelho still staring me silly! I take a look at my words, are they mine? Is this my style? Has it been corrupted from other formats. In the name of SEO, traction and other BS?

Nothing more to complain, there I’ve written more than 300 words, that’s ought to satisfy the bots. Damn scrawlers spoiling my ramblings. Nazis ruining my thought flow with rules.

LiFE skillz

So, you think you’re done.

Ready to give up on life.

No more you say.

No more pain.

No more gloom.

It’s been rather rough.

Fuck that shit.

Fuck Pride.

Do more.

Get hit and bounce back.

Fuck people.

Fuck recognition.

Fuck society.

You are awesome as you are.

And you can be a lot more.

Believe that shit.

Rewire your brain.

Reconnect your mind with your heart.

Do what you love.

Life’s to be lived.

Not measured by accolades.

Fuck money.

Don’t chase money like it’s happiness.

Get high on positivity.

Do shit that makes people cry.

Do shit that makes people laugh and brim with jealousy.

Do a lot more that makes you wanna live.

 Shakespeare asked long’,
To be or not to be?


Be you.

& Be more.

Life is journey & not a destination.
There’s no pacing.
It ain’t no racing

Just move.

Stay and you die.

Keep moving.

Keep moving.

And, Keep moving forward.

A step is all you need.

Start with what you have.

Do what you can.

But remember – change is all you need.

Change is all there is.

Change your mind.

So that you can change the world.

Crazy enough are the one’s able enough.

Be the change.

And see the change.

Live it your way.

Make your own path.

Keep on treading.

Make room for more in your heart.

Be the change.